|view of the sunset from Ikea|
|Top: Dean and Kyle, Bottom: sights of Ikea|
I woke up a few hours later with a plan. I had spent the winding down to sleep time planning what I wanted to do with my room. I made a list in my head. I went over it as I slept. When I woke up I wrote the list in my phone and set about preparing for my darlings, Dean and Kyle, to arrive for lunch and an Ikea trip. There is no need to go into a ton of detail about this part of the day as most of it consisted of browsing the Ikea show room and laughing until my sides nearly split but needless to say we found 90% of the things on my list and brought them back to my apartment. Here is what I will say about Dean and Kyle: these are they people you want as friends—the people who will haul their asses on a bus out to Brooklyn and spend 3 hours in Ikea with you, planning and mentally decorating your room and THEN return and set everything up. These are the guys, the ones who stay until it is done. The ones who, even though they are clearly tired, carefully move through the set up to make sure that everything is done correctly. The ones who, after all is said and done, still want to go out and celebrate and don’t even get mad when you get everyone lost walking to the train. These are the guys you want to have with you. I am BEYOND grateful to them for all they did today (and to my new roommate, Kyla, as well, who has kept me sane the past week by working around weird mattress delivery schedules and giving me huge pieces of furniture). I know that without these three I would have spent most of the day in my room, crying over a seemingly terrible decision. These three, with their confidence and their caring, gave me the strength to be brave on a day when I missed my mom and dad more than anything. And it is because of these three that I know that everything is going to be ok. Because I know I have people in my corner, even if I’m not 100% sure where that corner is or what bus I need to take to get there. And knowing this is half the battle. Looking back on today, the best thing I did was to make a plan and then set out to execute it, detail by detail. And the absolute best thing I did was chose to surround myself with people who wanted to help make that possible.
Things that are difficult might not always be fun, but they certainly help us learn in a way that nothing else can. And sometimes these are the experiences we need, the ones that make us take a step back and make a detailed list, the ones that make us feel hyper aware, the ones that force us to take a risk.